eleven 1/2

so. today had it's positives and it''s negatives.

+:
i hardly ate anything. just a bagel 1/2. and a couple sips of OJ.
going out tonight with my girlfriends AND we drink free tonight

-:
my boyfriend of eleven 1/2 months and i decided to call it quits.
and right before my 2nd favorite holiday, valentines day *shucks*

honestly, i was really really sad about it but then he and i had a 48 minute phone call and we both got a lot of things off of our chest that we both needed to say and honestly, this is just where i want us to be. Yeah, there will be times that i miss him or want to kiss him, but honestly, nothing is going to be different. He and I are still going to be able to be friends and I really don't want anything else from him. I know that he isn't able to give me what I want right now as a boyfriend.. I think it was hard for me to let go of what he and I used to be, and now that I am coming to terms with the fact that he isn't and we aren't....i'm okay. i actually feel like a weight is lifted off my shoulder. i knew this was going to happen and i'm glad we can walk away and be friends, friendly toward each other.

and i'm glad i can get some sexual frustration out tonight on the dance floor ;)