so sorry.

to anybody that actually visits my blog, i apologize for the lack of posts. i have been ridiculously sick, and involved in ridiculous amounts of drama lately. i promise this week i will be on it more.

currently i'm watching "Holly's World" and doing floor ab exercises. i have been SLACKING you guys. however, do to my recent illnesses i've lost 5lbs :) haha just gotta make it stick :)

anyway, watching Holly's World, which takes place in Vegas is only getting me more motivated and excited :)

an open letter to kyle richards

Dear Kyle,
from what i, along with the rest of america, have seen on the show (the real housewives of beverly hills)...you must be, hands down, the luckiest woman in the world. You beautiful (dead ringer for demi moore), have long beautiful healthy looking hair, a wonderful family, financially stable, a beautiful house, and you have, what seems like THE BEST HOTTEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD and you two look incandescently happy and in love.

for the sake of every woman in the world who has ever wanted any one of these things...please treasure it, count your blessings and never let go of what you have. i envy you.

eleven 1/2

so. today had it's positives and it''s negatives.

+:
i hardly ate anything. just a bagel 1/2. and a couple sips of OJ.
going out tonight with my girlfriends AND we drink free tonight

-:
my boyfriend of eleven 1/2 months and i decided to call it quits.
and right before my 2nd favorite holiday, valentines day *shucks*

honestly, i was really really sad about it but then he and i had a 48 minute phone call and we both got a lot of things off of our chest that we both needed to say and honestly, this is just where i want us to be. Yeah, there will be times that i miss him or want to kiss him, but honestly, nothing is going to be different. He and I are still going to be able to be friends and I really don't want anything else from him. I know that he isn't able to give me what I want right now as a boyfriend.. I think it was hard for me to let go of what he and I used to be, and now that I am coming to terms with the fact that he isn't and we aren't....i'm okay. i actually feel like a weight is lifted off my shoulder. i knew this was going to happen and i'm glad we can walk away and be friends, friendly toward each other.

and i'm glad i can get some sexual frustration out tonight on the dance floor ;)

with a couple minutes left before bedtime.

i thought i would post to you all. :) HELLO!

todays post will be a bit of a boring one. I went to my cardio kickboxing death class at LT today. the class instructors, as amazing as they are, are mos DEF on something. they have to be. they have so much energy i can't even believe it. granted they also have 6 pack abs....something that not ALL of us have.....(i am not even going to be so bold to say "not all of us have yet" because i am dreaming VERY big to have anything like a 6 pack)

went ice skating with my boyfriend today. he was in a mood today though. i can't keep up with him sometimes to be honest. idk. blah...i'm so boring today. i apologize.


really want to see this movie.
I'M SO BORING TODAY GOODBYE IM SORRY

four minutes and two seconds..

until the Eagles/Packer game is over and I officially get off my bum and go to the gym. I have goals to meet! so while I procrastinate going to the gym even further I will write to you about my week/weekend.
i actually had a very nice weekend. i went out with my best friend, shall we refer to her as "K", went with her to get her tattoo covered up (which did ultimately make me sad she did it, but that is another story), my boyfriend wanted to take us to dave and busters (because he was being a dick to my friend, but that TOO is another story and quite frankly I don't have time to make this a lengthy post)...went and ran errands with my otha bestie "A" and bought new sheets, and went to see "The King's Speech" with my mom. Of course after the movie we ended up getting into a very dramatic and unnecessary fight but suffice to say, the movie was great. I recommend it.

I just realize I should post to you what I got for XMAS. A little late, I know, but I did get the boots I wanted ;) toldya so.

I also need to update my playlist on my iPhone but MAN am i bummed that LIMEWIRE isn't happening anymore. I just can't bring myself to buy ONE song for 1.29....just down right robbery.
Well I am at the two minute warning so...tootles for now dolls.

one hundred and twenty eight days until vegas.

so to keep myself on a diet, i am going to blog about it. i need that extra push and i figure if i write it out and feel obligated to my blog (blogligated-haha) then i will be more determined to give you guys my results and what not.
my girlfriends and i decided to go to vegas because our trip to jamaica last year failed horribly. so this year its vegas. and i need to get bikini ready.
currently i am 5'6 and i weigh 148 lbs. not TOO bad considering I was once at least fifteen pounds heavier than that but that's a different story. this time i am concentrated on toning up my abs (who isn't?) my back and my hips (the DEATH area). i will also post some pictures later but right now the playoff's are on.
ttyl.

five.

i fucking hate writing but it's what i want to do for a living. i want to have a loft in london and write and live. with a dog. and flowers. and learn to love tea.

four

isn't it funny, the differences in how you see yourself and how a camera lens sees you?